Above the influence

vanillafaces:

The story behind it (again): This is a picture of my arm and my sister’s. She’s the one with the tattoo I’m the one with the scars. I’ve been in a mental hospital for over a year because of selfharm, suicidal thoughts & a depression. Me and my sister always had a really close band. We only had each other but everything changed when I was hospitalised; she was alone and she couldn’t cope with the fact that I was unhappy. She kept blaming herself and tried everything to make me better. She always had to cry when I needed to go back to the hospital. She cried while calling ambulances for me and when she saw my not responding on the bathroom floor. But things got better, because of the hospital but because of her too. I had a reason to live, to exist. I realised I needed to get better because of her. She always told me it was me & her against the world. And believe me we were and we still are. So when I got better I still had all those marks on my arm, it made me sad ofcourse it reminded me of my lows and my demons. My sister saw how it affected my recovery and without I knew any of it she tattooed my birthday on her wrist. I kept asking her why why why. Her answer: ‘You don’t have your own arms anymore so you can have mine’ This picture shows how she pulls me up every time.
hplyrikz:

Clear your mind here
"I’m sick of people telling me it’s just a “get over it” situation. Fuck you. You don’t know what it’s like in my head."
Will McAvoy, The Newsroom (via lushwisdom)

(Source: stxxz.us, via tooodamnraw)

"A woman is only vulnerable when her nail polish is drying, and even then she can still pull a trigger."
some great quote I heard somewhere once upon a time and that is very, very true (via traffic-jam-session)

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"All you want to be is enough, but you will never be enough because you will never be her. And no matter how good of a person you are, or how compatible you are, or how well you treat him or how much you make him laugh, he will never love you the way he loves her."
"Fall in love with the sound of her voice, because that’s the first thing you’ll lose when she’s gone."
"

Today I had a teacher tell me that a family member of theirs attempted suicide with pills.
I asked why he didn’t seem more concerned, and he replied with “people who attempt overdose are just attention seeking.”

Tell that to my grandma while she had to shower me for a month because I couldn’t stand after my overdose.

Tell that to my younger cousin who didn’t understand why I slept for three days straight.

Tell that to my bestfriend who saw me cry in every moment I was awake for two weeks after I swallowed those little pieces of hell.

Tell that to my brother who watched me vomit up everything I ate because my stomach was on fire.

Tell that to my teachers who watched me fail my exams because I was so dizzy and out of it I couldn’t stand, let alone concentrate.

Tell that to my mum, who watched me violently shake, sweat, convulse and cry in her arms because I didn’t want to be alive.

Go on, tell them it’s attention seeking. I dare you.

"
(via sighbroken)

(Source: sighbroken, via allhopeis-lostt)

"Isn’t it fucking terrifying that no matter how many promises they made, no matter how long you’ve been together, someone can get up and walk out of your life without a second thought and you have to carry on living because the world doesn’t stop for any of us"
"I hope you get everything you deserve."
The sweetest or evilest thing you can say to someone (via icantgrowanewheart)

(Source: mainlyboredom, via todiebyyourside7)

"Date someone who meets you half way. Date someone who brings you a glass a water when they get themselves one. Date someone who makes sure you don’t spend money on ridiculous things. Date someone your ex hates and your mom loves. Date someone who’d rather spend a Friday night watching movies, than out with 50 people they barley even talk to. Date someone who sleeps on your chest and leaves a little puddle of drool. Don’t date someone who makes you leave oceans of tears."
At the end of the day it’s the little things. (via gretzky)

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dumbdaisies:

"It wasn’t until I was sitting on the floor of my shower
hyperventilating your name into my hands
when I realized that you were the air I struggled to breathe
and I wasn’t even the dirt under your fucking finger nails”
Journal entry 10/16/14
"

It’s 3 a.m. I’m still awake. I’m losing sleep. I’m losing myself.

I’m losing you.

So I write tonight. I write for everyone of us who has suffered. Every one of us who is broken. Every one of us who has a damaged soul. Every one of us whose brilliant scarlet became just another red.

This is for us, the broken ones.

And for the ones who broke us in two.

"
Nikita Gill, We Used to be Happy (via untamedunwanted)

(via easy-tofalleasyto-break)

whatisbestforgotten:

itsjustoutsidemywindow:

bigdaddypimpppppp:

impactings:

15 texts i never sent

This made me cry

the last one made me lose it. I have so many tears running down my face

Literally sobbing reading these

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